i’m not happy but im not as sad or depressed about life anymore.
i just feel like what everyones been telling me about, i’m finally starting to see it for myself.
accepting life as it comes.
it not worth fighting for someone who doesnt love you the same way you do for them.
at some point, you have to give up and just be.
i’m more focused on my career, work, school, family, friends.
when the right guy comes along, he will. and he will love me the way i was suppose to be loved and cared for.
i know for a fact that happiness and love exist because i know i can love like that, till then i’m just taking it one day at a time.
girls, if a guy cant appreciate you and love the way you were supposed to be loved…just keep on….cause someone else will turn your world for the better.
i will NEVER love another man,
the way i LOVED him.
never in my lifetime again.
it was carefree and knew no boundaries.
it was love without effort.
unconditional love so innocent and pure.
it always forgave and never looked back.
it was the greatest prize of all but with no one to claim it.
it was love, I, now don’t regret.
because now i know what i’m searching for, for myself.
that’s the kind of love, i know i deserve.
what “was”, was the past. what “is”, is going to be my future.
im sittin here watchin breakin dawn part 2. its pretty legit, in a way. LOL.
gah, sooo what can i talk about now?
ahhh the famous feelings huh? LOL.
i’m just sad. feeling lost, like half of me is gone…..literally.
its how i feel when i dont talk to him….
i ask god everyday, why me?
why bring someone in my life that i can’t have, why bring someone that i will fall in love with…and not feel the same way about me?
you know sometimes i take it out on everyone else…because at the end of the day…i’m mad at myself.
i really don’t know why i’m like this, why i let myself get like this, why the hell i feel this way….
i can’t help myself. no one gets that.
do u really think i want to be like this? i really dont…
and you know lately, he is been distant than ever. won’t spend time with me anymore. when i ask him to come over, its a no. i think my worst fear is happening…
and you know what tho? i took the first step….a very force step. did i like it? ehhh, not so much. this is why its hard..
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i don’t think i can ever express myself better than writing (or in this case
“typing”)it all down….i love to write….its where i can express my soul without being judged.
i write to express my feelings at the moment, i write about my dreams and my goals. i RAMBLE. it’s what i do best.
the feeling of getting stuff off my chest is exhilarating….
its like a personal best friend. LOL.
I can’t believe that february is about to be over! how time flies. I’m about to start classes in 2 weeks or so….and i’m excited to just be focus on that. Mannn, i can’t wait to just finish all my studies and just be done with it. i’m soooo determined to check this off my list, no matter how long or hard it takes.
I know i made the mistake of not doing things in a timely manner regarding school because i let “life” get the best of me. BUT as long as your moving and making some progress, who gives a fuck what everyone else thinks right?!
I for one can tell you straight up that i don’t give a fuck about what anyone thinks of me and what i do. [ oh wait, hold up..there is one person…i care about his opinions ]
Ahhh, idk. i just want happiness! Happiness be mine! LOL.
I just want the career, the happiness, family, and love =)